Letters99 Letter XCIX. To a certain monk.
Letter XCIX. To a certain monk.
Bernard writes that he had been anxious because of the rumoured departure of this monk from his convent, and that he had been freed from such fear by his letter.
The messenger by whom you say that you have been disturbed was sent by Brother William in your interest, and not in his own. He, indeed, by the grace of God, acts bravely, as he is wont, and does not merit so far that that declaration should be applied to him: A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways (S. James i. 8). He walks simply and faithfully in the ways of the Lord, and does not fear that woe that is spoken: Woe be to the sinner that goeth two ways (Ecclus. ii. 12). For we had heard that you, being mixed up in a dispute, had left your convent, to the grave scandal of your abbot and your brethren, and were living alone in, I know not what unsuitable place. Being greatly distressed by this rumour, I ask myself, with anxiety, in what way I could be of service to you, and nothing occurred to me to do better than to beg you to come to see me so as to make me aware of what had passed about yourself, so that I might, without delay, counsel you by word of mouth. But since my letter and your reply have put to flight the fears and suspicions which were in the mind of each of us, let us say nothing more of the matter. It has been shown, at all events, by this false report, how true is the mutual affection between us; and I think that this affection has been not unfruitfully renewed by our mutual anxiety; I should hope that we might taste this fruit far more fully if leave and opportunity were given you to pay me a visit. Otherwise it were better that I should still be content without seeing you rather than enjoy your presence at a time when it is unsuitable or inconvenient to you.
Nuntium quo te dicis fuisse turbatum, frater Willelmus non sua, sed tua necessitate putavit ad te dirigendum. Siquidem ipse suo more Dei gratia fortiter agit, alienam a se interim adhuc faciens illam sententiam: Vir duplex animo inconstans est in omnibus viis suis. Vias quippe Domini simpliciter, ac per hoc confidenter ambulans, non sentit illud Vae, de quo dicitur: Vae terram ingredienti duabus viis! Te autem audieramus in discordia versari, domum vestram non sine gravi scandalo abbatis et fratrum deseruisse, solumque habitare in nescio quo satis inconvenienti loco. Quo rumore nobis permotis, anxieque quaerentibus si quo modo tibi a nobis posset consultum iri; nihil paratius occurrere potuit, quam ut, te vocato ad nos, per te de te certiores prius effici curaremus: sicque quod in promptu esset, praesentes praesenti consuleremus. Sed jam tuo scripto, nostroque rescripto, utrorumque ab alterutro falsae suspicionis timore depulso, pariter quiescamus. Verum hac falsitate quam vera sit ad nos invicem dilectio, comprobatum est; quam quidem dilectionem per hanc mutuam nostri sollicitudinem, non infructuose nunc renovatam esse putaverim; cujus fructum tunc nos quidem copiosum speraremus accipere, si tui nobis copia cum opportunitate daretur. Alioquin opportunius ducimus nos nostra contentos esse inopia, quam importuna copia abundare.