Lectures or Tractates on the Gospel According to St. John 34
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1. What we have just heard and attentively received, as the holy Gospel was being read, I doubt not that all of us have also endeavored to understand, and that each of us according to his measure apprehended what he could of so great a matter as that which has been read; and while the bread of the word is laid out, no one can complain that he has tasted nothing. But again I doubt not that there is scarcely any who has understood the whole. Nevertheless, even should there be any who may sufficiently understand the words of our Lord Jesus Christ now read out of the Gospel, let him bear with our ministry, whilst, if possible, with His assistance, we may, by treating thereof, cause that either all or many may understand that which a few are joyful of having understood for themselves.
Quod modo audivimus et intenti accepimus, cum sanctum Evangelium legeretur, non dubito quod omnes etiam intelligere conati sumus: et quisque nostrum de re tam magna quae lecta est, pro suo modulo cepit quod potuit; et posito pane verbi, nemo est qui se queratur nihil gustasse. Sed iterum non dubito, quia difficile quisquam est qui totum intellexerit. Tamen etiamsi est qui omnia verba Domini nostri Jesu Christi modo ex Evangelio recitata satis intelligat; toleret ministerium nostrum, quousque, si possimus, illo adjuvante tractando faciamus ut vel omnes vel multi intelligant, quod se pauci intellexisse laetantur.
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2. I think that what the Lord says, “I am the light of the world, “is clear to those that have eyes, by which they are made partakers of this light: but they who have not eyes except in the flesh alone, wonder at what is said by the Lord Jesus Christ, “I am the light of the world.” And perhaps there may not be wanting some one too who says with himself: Whether perhaps the Lord Christ is that sun which by its rising and setting causes the day? For there have not been wanting heretics who thought this. The Manichæans have supposed that the Lord Christ is that sun which is visible to carnal eyes, exposed and public to be seen, not only by men, but by the beasts. But the right faith of the Catholic Church rejects such a fiction, and perceives it to be a devilish doctrine: not only by believing acknowledges it to be such, but in the case of whom it can, proves it even by reasoning. Let us therefore reject this kind of error, which the Holy Church has anathematized from the beginning. Let us not suppose that the Lord Jesus Christ is this sun which we see rising from the east, setting in the west; to whose course succeeds night, whose rays are obscured by a cloud, which removes from place to place by a set motion: the Lord Christ is not such a thing as this. The Lord Christ is not the sun that was made, but He by whom the sun was made. For “all things were made by Him, and without Him was nothing made.”
Quod ait Dominus, Ego sum lux mundi, clarum puto esse eis qui habent oculos, unde hujus lucis participes fiant: qui autem non habent oculos nisi in sola carne, mirantur quod dictum est a Domino Jesu Christo, Ego sum lux mundi. Et forte non desit qui dicat apud semetipsum: Numquid forte Dominus Christus est sol iste, qui ortu et occasu peragit diem? Non enim defuerunt haeretici qui ista senserunt. Manichaei solem istum oculis carnis visibilem expositum et publicum non tantum hominibus, sed etiam pecoribus ad videndum, Christum Dominum esse putaverunt. Sed catholicae Ecclesiae recta fides improbat tale commentum, et diabolicam doctrinam esse cognoscit: nec solum agnoscit credendo, sed in quibus potest convincit etiam disputando. Improbemus itaque hujusmodi errorem, quem sancta ab initio anathematizavit Ecclesia. Non arbitremur Dominum Jesum Christum hunc esse solem quem videmus oriri ab oriente, occidere in occidente; cujus cursui nox succedit, cujus radii nube obumbrantur, qui certa de loco in locum motione commigrat: non est hoc Dominus Christus. Non est Dominus Christus sol factus, sed per quem sol factus est. Omnia enim per ipsum facta sunt, et sine ipso factum est nihil .
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3. There is therefore a Light which made this light of the sun: let us love this Light, let us long to understand it, let us thirst for the same; that, with itself for our guide, we may at length come to it, and that we may so live in it that we may never die. This is indeed that Light of which prophecy long ago going before thus sang in the psalm: “O Lord, Thou shalt save men and beasts; even as Thy mercy is multiplied, O God.” These are the words of the holy psalm: mark ye what the ancient discourse of holy men of God did premise concerning such a light. “Men,” saith it, “and beasts Thou shalt save, O Lord; even as Thy mercy is multiplied, O God.” For since Thou art God, and hast manifold mercy, the same multiplicity of Thy mercy reaches not only to men whom Thou hast created in Thine own image, but even to the beasts which Thou hast made subservient to men. For He who gives salvation to man, the same gives salvation also to the beast. Do not blush to think this of the Lord thy God: nay, rather believe this and trust it, and see thou think not otherwise. He that saves thee, the same saves thy horse and thy sheep; to come to the very least, also thy hen: “Salvation is of the Lord,” and God saves these. Thou art uneasy, thou questionest. I wonder why thou doubtest. Shall He disdain to save who deigned to create? Of the Lord is the saving of angels, of men, and of beasts: “Salvation is of the Lord.” Just as no man is from himself, so no man is saved by himself. Therefore most truly and right well doth the psalm say, “O Lord, Thou shall save men and beasts.” Why? “Even as thy mercy is multiplied, O God.” For Thou art God, Thou hast created, Thou savest: Thou gavest being, Thou givest to be in health.
Est ergo lux quae fecit hanc lucem: hanc amemus, hanc intelligere cupiamus, ipsam sitiamus; ut ad ipsam duce ipsa aliquando veniamus, et in illa ita vivamus, ut nunquam omnino moriamur. Ista enim lux est, de qua prophetia olim praemissa ita in Psalmo cecinit: Homines et jumenta salvos facies, Domine; sicut multiplicata est misericordia tua, Deus. Psalmi sancti ista verba sunt: advertite quid de tali luce antiquus sanctorum hominum Dei sermo praemiserit. Homines, inquit, et jumenta salvos facies, Domine; sicut multiplicata est misericordia tua, Deus. Quoniam enim Deus es, et habes multiplicem misericordiam; pervenit eadem multiplicitas misericordiae tuae, non solum ad homines quos creasti ad imaginem tuam, sed etiam ad pecora quae hominibus subdidisti. A quo enim salus hominis, ab illo salus et pecoris. Non crubescas hoc sentire de Domino Deo tuo: imo praesumas et fidas, et caveas ne aliter sentias. Qui salvum facit te, ipse salvum facit equum tuum, ipse ovem tuam; ad minima omnino veniamus, ipse gallinam tuam: Domini est salus , et ista Deus salvat. Movet te, interrogas; miror quid dubitas. Dedignabitur salvare, qui dignatus est creare? Domini est salus Angelorum, hominum, pecorum; Domini est salus. Sicut nemo est a seipso, ita nemo salvus est a seipso. Proinde verissime Psalmus atque optime ait, Homines et jumenta salvos facies, Domine. Quare? Sicut multiplicata est misericordia tua, Deus. Tu enim es Deus, tu creasti, tu salvas: tu dedisti esse, tu das sanum esse.
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4. Since, therefore, as the mercy of God is multiplied, men and beasts are saved by Him, have not men something else which God as Creator bestows on them, which He bestows not on the beasts? Is there no distinction between the living creature made after the image of God, and the living creature made subject to the image of God? Clearly there is: beyond that salvation common to us with the dumb animals, there is what God bestows on us, but not on them. What is this? Follow on in the same psalm: “But the sons of men shall hope under the covert of Thy wings.” Having now a salvation in common with their cattle, “the sons of men shall hope under the covert of Thy wings.” They have one salvation in fact, another in hope. This salvation which is at present is common to men and cattle; but there is another which men hope for; and which they who hope for receive, they who despair of receive not. For it saith, “The sons of men shall hope under covert of Thy wings.” And they that perseveringly hope are protected by Thee, lest they be cast down from their hope by the devil: “Under covert of Thy wings they shall hope.” If they shall hope, what shall they hope for, but for what the cattle shall not have? “They shall be fully drunk with the fatness of Thy house; and from the torrent of Thy pleasure Thou shalt give them drink.” What sort of wine is that with which it is laudable to be drunk? What sort of wine is that which disturbs not the mind, but directs it? What sort of wine is that which makes perpetually sane, and makes not insane by drinking? “They shall be fully drunk.” How? “With the fatness of Thy house; and from the torrent of Thy pleasure Thou shalt give them drink.” How so? “Because with Thee is the fountain of life.” The very fountain of life walked on the earth, the same who said, “Whoso thirsts, let him come unto me.” Behold the fountain! But we begin to speak about the light, and to handle the question laid down from the Gospel concerning the light. For we read how the Lord said, “I am the light of the world.” Thence arose a question, lest any one, carnally understanding this, should fancy this light to mean the sun: we came thence to the psalm, which having considered, we found meanwhile that the Lord is the fountain of life. Drink and live. “With Thee,” it saith, “is the fountain of life;” therefore, “under the shadow of Thy wings the sons of men hope,” seeking to be full drunk with this fountain. But we were speaking of the Light. Follow on, then; for the prophet, having said, “With Thee is the fountain of life,” went on to add, “In Thy light shall we see light,”—God of God, Light of Light. By this Light the sun’s light was made; and the Light which made the sun, under which He also made us, was made under the sun for our sake. That Light which made the sun, was made, I say, under the sun for our sake. Do not despise the cloud of the flesh; with that cloud it is covered, not to be obscured, but to be moderated.
Si ergo sicut multiplicata est misericordia Dei, ab illo homines et jumenta salvantur; nonne homines habent aliquid aliud quod eis Deus praestet creator, quod jumentis non praestat? Nullane discretio est inter animal factum ad imaginem Dei, et animal subditum imagini Dei? Est plane: praeter salutem istam communem nobis cum animantibus mutis, est quod nobis praestet Deus, illis autem non praestat. Quid est hoc? Sequere in eodem psalmo: Filii autem hominum sub tegmine alarum tuarum sperabunt. Habentes modo salutem communem cum pecoribus suis, Filii hominum sub tegmine alarum tuarum sperabunt. Aliam habent salutem in re, aliam in spe. Salus ista quae in praesenti est, hominibus pecoribusque communis est: sed est alia quam sperant homines; et accipiunt qui sperant, non accipiunt qui desperant. Filii enim hominum sub tegmine, inquit, alarum tuarum sperabunt. Qui autem perseveranter sperant, a te proteguntur, ne de spe a diabolo dejiciantur: sub tegmine alarum tuarum sperabunt. Si ergo sperabunt, quid sperabunt, nisi quod pecora non habebunt? Inebriabuntur ab ubertate domus tuae; et torrente voluptatis tuae potabis eos. Quale vinum est, unde inebriari laudabile est? quale vinum est, quod non turbat, sed dirigit mentem? quale vinum est, quod facit perpetuo sanum, non inebriando facit insanum? Inebriabuntur. Unde? Ab ubertate domus tuae; et torrente voluptatis tuae potabis eos. Unde? Quoniam apud te fons vitae. Ipse fons vitae ambulabat in terra, ipse dicebat, Qui sitit, veniat ad me . Ecce fons. Sed nos de lumine loqui coeperamus, et propositam ex Evangelio quaestionem de lumine tractabamus. Lectum est enim nobis dicente Domino, Ego sum lux mundi. Inde quaestio, ne quis carnaliter sapiens solem istum intelligendum putaret: venimus inde ad Psalmum, quo considerato, invenimus interim Dominum fontem vitae. Bibe et vive. Apud te, inquit, fons vitae: ideo sub umbraculo alarum tuarum sperant filii hominum, inebriari isto fonte quaerentes. Sed de lumine dicebamus. Sequere ergo: nam Propheta cum dixisset, Apud te fons vitae, secutus adjunxit, In lumine tuo videbimus lumen ; Deum de Deo, lumen de lumine. Per hoc lumen factum est solis lumen: et lumen quod fecit solem, sub quo fecit et nos, factum est sub sole propter nos. Factum est, inquam, propter nos sub sole lumen quod fecit solem. Noli contemnere nubem carnis: nube tegitur, non ut obscuretur, sed ut temperetur.
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5. That unfailing Light, the Light of wisdom, speaking through the cloud of the flesh, says to men, “I am the light of the world; he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.” How He has withdrawn thee from the eyes of the flesh, and recalled thee to the eyes of the heart! For it is not enough to say, “Whoso followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have light;” He added too, “of life;” even as it was there said, “For with Thee is the fountain of life.” See thus, my brethren, how the words of the Lord agree with the truth of that psalm: both there, the light is put with the fountain of life, and by the Lord it is said, “light of life.” But for bodily use, light and fountain are different things: our mouths seek a fountain, our eyes light; when we thirst we seek a fountain, when we are in darkness we seek light; and if we chance to thirst in the night, we kindle a light to come to a fountain. Not so with God: light and fountain are the same thing: He who shines for thee that thou mayest see, the same flows for thee that thou mayest drink.
Loquens ergo per nubem carnis lumen indeficiens, lumen sapientiae, ait hominibus, Ego sum lux mundi: qui sequitur me, non ambulabit in tenebris; sed habebit lumen vitae. Quomodo te abstulit ab oculis carnis, et revocavit ad oculos cordis? Non enim sufficit dicere, Qui me sequitur, non ambulabit in tenebris, sed habebit lumen; addidit enim, vitae; sicut ibi dictum est, Quoniam apud te fons vitae: Videte itaque fratres mei, quomodo verba Domini cum illius psalmi veritate concordant: et ibi lumen positum est cum fonte vitae, et a Domino dictum est lumen vitae. In istis autem usibus corporalibus aliud est lumen, aliud fons: fontem fauces quaerunt, lumen oculi: quando sitimus quaerimus fontem; quando in tenebris sumus, quaerimus lumen; et si forte nocte sitiamus, lumen accendimus ut ad fontem veniamus. Non sic apud Deum: quod lumen est, hoc est fons; qui tibi lucet ut videas, ipse tibi manat ut bibas.
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6. You see, then, my brethren, you see, if you see inwardly, what kind of light this is, of which the Lord says, “He that followeth me shall not walk in darkness.” Follow the sun, and let us see if thou wilt not walk in darkness. Behold, by rising it comes forth to thee; it goes by its course towards the west. Perhaps thy journey is towards the east: unless thou goest in a contrary direction to that in which it travels, thou wilt certainly err by following it, and instead of east wilt get to the west. If thou follow it by land, thou wilt go wrong; if the mariner follow it by sea, he will go wrong. Finally, it seems to thee, suppose, that thou must follow the sun, and thou also travellest thyself towards the west, whither it also travels; let us see after it has set if thou wilt not walk in darkness. See how, although thou art not willing to desert it, yet it will desert thee, to finish the day by necessity of its service. But our Lord Jesus Christ, even when He was not manifest to all through the cloud of His flesh, was yet at the same time holding all things by the power of His wisdom. Thy God is whole everywhere: if thou fall not off from Him, He will never fall away from thee.
Videtis ergo, fratres mei, videtis, si intus videtis, quale hoc lumen est de quo Dominus dicit, Qui me sequitur, non ambulabit in tenebris. Sequere istum solem, videamus si non ambulabis in tenebris. Ecce oriundo exit ad te: ille cursu suo ad occidentem pergit; tibi forte ad orientem profectio est: nisi tu in contrariam partem pergas, non qua ille tendit, sequendo eum profecto errabis, et pro oriente occidentem tenebis. Tu eum in terra si sequaris, errabis: nauta si eum in mari sequatur, errabit. Postremo videtur tibi sequendum esse solem, et tendis etiam ipse ad occidentem, quo et ille tendit: videamus cum occiderit, si non ambulabis in tenebris. Vide quemadmodum etsi nolueris eum tu deserere, ipse te deseret, servitutis suae necessitate peragens diem. Dominus autem noster Jesus Christus interim et cum per carnis nubem non omnibus apparebat, per sapientiae potestatem omnia tenebat. Deus tuus ubique totus est: si non ab illo facias casum, nunquam a te ipse facit occasum.
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7. Accordingly, “He that followeth me,” saith He, “shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.” What He has promised, He put in a word of the future tense; for He says not has, but “shall have the light of life.” Yet He does not say, He that shall follow me; but, he that does follow me. What it is our duty to do, He put in the present tense; but what He has promised to them that do it, He has indicated by a word of the future tense. “He that followeth, shall have.” That followeth now, shall have hereafter: followeth now by faith, shall have hereafter by sight. For, “whilst we are in the body,” saith the apostle, “we are absent from the Lord: for we walk by faith, not by sight.” When shall we walk by sight? When we shall have the light of life, when we shall have come to that vision, when this night shall have passed away. Of that day, indeed, which is to arise, it is said, “In the morning I will stand near thee, and contemplate thee.” What means “in the morning”? When the night of this world is over, when the terrors of temptations are over, when that lion which goeth about roaring in the night, seeking whom it may devour, is vanquished. “In the morning I will stand near thee, and contemplate.” Now what do we think, brethren, to be our duty for the present time, but what is again said in the psalm, “Every night through will I wash my couch; I will moisten my bed with my tears”? Every night through, saith he, I will weep; I will burn with desire for the light. The Lord sees my desire: for another psalm says to Him, “All my desire is before Thee; and my groaning is not hid from Thee.” Dost thou desire gold? Thou canst be seen; for, while seeking gold, thou wilt be manifest to men. Dost thou desire corn? Thou askest one that has it; whom also thou informest, while seeking to get at that which thou desirest. Dost thou desire God? Who sees, but God? From whom, then, dost thou seek God, as thou seekest bread, water, gold, silver, corn? From whom dost thou seek God, except from God? He is sought from Himself who has promised Himself. Let the soul extend her desire, and with more capacious bosom seek to comprehend that which “eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, nor hath entered into the heart of man.” Desire it we can, long for it we can, pant after it we can; but worthily conceive it, worthily unfold it in words, we cannot.
Qui ergo me, inquit, sequitur, non ambulabit in tenebris; sed habebit lumen vitae. Quod promisit, futuri temporis verbo posuit: non enim ait, habet; sed, habebit, inquit, lumen vitae. Nec ait tamen, qui sequetur me; sed, qui sequitur me. In eo quod facere debemus, praesens tempus posuit: quod autem promisit facientibus, futuri temporis verbo significavit. Qui sequitur habebit. Modo sequitur, post habebit: modo sequitur per fidem, post habebit per speciem. Quamdiu enim sumus in corpore, ait Apostolus, peregrinamur a Domino: per fidem enim ambulamus, non per speciem . Quando per speciem? Cum habuerimus lumen vitae, cum ad illam visionem venerimus, quando nox ista transierit. De illo quippe die qui exorturus est, dictum est, Mane astabo tibi, et contemplabor . Quid est, mane? Transacta nocte saeculi hujus, transactis tertoribus tentationum, superato illo leone qui nocte rugiens circuit, quem devoret quaerens . Mane astabo tibi, et contemplabor. Nunc vero quid putamus, fratres huic tempori congruere, nisi quod rursus in Psalmo dicitur, Lavabo per singulas noctes lectum meum, lacrymis meis stratum meum rigabo ? Per singulas noctes, inquit, flebo: desiderio lucis ardebo. Videt Dominus desiderium meum; quoniam dicit illi alter psalmus, Ante te est omne desiderium meum, et gemitus meus a te non est absconditus . Desideras aurum? videri potes; quaerens enim aurum manifestus eris hominibus. Desideras frumentum? interrogas qui habeat; cui et cupiens pervenire ad id quod desideras, indicas. Desideras Deum? quis videt, nisi Deus? A quo enim petis Deum, sicut panem, sicut aquam, sicut aurum, sicut argentum, sicut frumentum? A quo petis Deum, nisi a Deo? Ipse petitur a seipso, qui promittit seipsum. Extendat anima cupiditatem suam; et sinu capaciore quaerat comprehendere quod oculus non vidit, nec auris audivit, nec in cor hominis ascendit . Desiderari potest, concupisci potest, suspirari in illud potest: digne cogitari, et verbis explicari non potest.
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8. Wherefore, my brethren, since the Lord says briefly, “I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life;” in these words He has commanded one thing, promised another; let us do what He has commanded, that we may not with shameless face demand what He has promised; that He may not say to us in His judgment, Hast thou done what I commanded, that thou shouldest expect what I promised? What hast Thou commanded, then, O Lord our God? He says to thee, That thou shouldest follow me. Thou hast sought counsel of life? Of what life, but of that of which it is said, “With Thee is the fountain of life”? A certain man heard it said to him,” Go, sell all that thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven; and come, follow me.” He followed not, but went away sorrowful; he sought the “good Master,” went to Him as a teacher, and despised His teaching; he went away sorrowful, tied and bound by his lusts; he went away sorrowful, having a great load of avarice on his shoulders. He toiled and fretted; and yet he thought that He, who was willing to rid him of his load, was not to be followed but forsaken. But after the Lord has, by the gospel, cried aloud, “Come unto me, all ye that labor, and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest; take my yoke upon you, and learn of me, for I am meek and lowly in heart,” how many, on hearing the gospel, have done what that rich man, on hearing from His own mouth, did not do? Therefore, let us do it now, let us follow the Lord; let us loose the fetters by which we are hindered from following Him. And who is sufficient to loose such bonds, unless He help, to whom it is said, “Thou hast burst asunder my bonds”? Of whom another psalm says, “The Lord looseth them that are in bonds; the Lord raiseth up them that are crushed and oppressed.”
Ergo, fratres mei, quoniam Dominus breviter ait, Ego sum lux mundi; qui me sequitur, non ambulabit in tenebris; sed habebit lumen vitae: quibus verbis aliud est quod jussit, aliud quod promisit: faciamus quod jussit, ne impudenti fronte desideremus, quod promisit; ne dicat nobis in judicio suo, Fecisti enim quod jussi, ut expetas quod promisi? Quid ergo jussisti, Domine Deus noster? Dicit tibi, Ut sequereris me. Consilium vitae petiisti. Cujus vitae, nisi de qua dictum est, Apud te fons vitae? Audivit quidam, Vade, vende omnia quae habes, et da pauperibus, et habebis thesaurum in coelo; et veni, sequere me. Tristis abscessit, non est secutus: quaesivit magistrum bonum, interpellavit doctorem, et contempsit docentem: tristis abscessit, ligatus cupiditatibus suis; tristis abscessit, habens grandem sarcinam avaritiae super humeros suos . Laborabat, aestuabat; et qui ab illo sarcinam deponere voluit, non est sequendus putatus, sed deserendus. Postea vero quam Dominus per Evangelium clamavit, Venite ad me, omnes qui laboratis et onerati estis, et ego vos reficiam; tollite jugum meum super vos, et discite a me quia mitis sum et humilis corde : quam multi fecerunt audito Evangelio, quod ex ore ipsius auditum dives ille non fecit? Ergo modo faciamus, sequamur Dominum; solvamus compedes quibus impedimur sequi. Et quis idoneus solvere tales nodos, nisi ille adjuvet cui dictum est, Disrupisti vincula mea ? De quo alius psalmus dicit, Dominus solvit compeditos, Dominus erigit elisos .
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9. And what do they follow, who have been loosed and raised up, but the Light from which they hear, “I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness”? For the Lord gives light to the blind. Therefore we, brethren, having the eye-salve of faith, are now enlightened. For His spittle did before mingle with the earth, by which the eyes of him who was born blind were anointed. We, too, have been born blind of Adam, and have need of Him to enlighten us. He mixed spittle with clay: “The Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us.” He mixed spittle with earth; hence it was predicted, “Truth has sprung from the earth;” and He said Himself, “I am the way, the truth, and the life.” When we shall see face to face, we shall have the full fruition of the truth; for this also is promised to us. For who would dare hope for what God had not deigned either to promise or to give? We shall see face to face. The apostle says, “Now I know in part, now through a glass darkly; but then, face to face.” And the Apostle John says in his epistle, “Beloved, now are we the sons of God; and it has not yet appeared what we shall be: we know that, when He shall appear, we shall be like Him; for we shall see Him even as He is.” This is a great promise; if thou lovest, follow. I do love, sayest thou, but by what way am I to follow? If the Lord thy God had said to thee, “I am the truth and the life,” in desiring truth and longing for life, thou mightest truly ask the way by which thou mightest come to these, and mightest say to thyself: A great thing is the truth, a great thing is the life, were there only the means whereby my soul might come thereto! Dost thou ask by what way? Hear Him say at the first, “I am the way.” Before He said whither, He premised by what way: “I am,” saith He, “the way.” The way whither? “And the truth and the life.” First, He told thee the way to come; then, whither to come. I am the way, I am the truth, I am the life. Remaining with the Father, the truth and life; putting on flesh, He became the way. It is not said to thee, Labor in finding a way to come to the truth and life; this is not said to thee. Sluggard, arise: the way itself has come to thee, and roused thee from thy sleep; if, however, it has roused thee, up and walk. Perhaps thou art trying to walk, and art not able, because thy feet ache. How come thy feet to ache? Have they been running over rough places at the bidding of avarice? But the word of God has healed even the lame. Behold, thou sayest, I have my feet sound, but the way itself I see not. He has also enlightened the blind.
Et quid sequuntur soluti et erecti, nisi lumen a quo audiunt, Ego sum lumen mundi: qui me sequitur, non ambulabit in tenebris? quia Dominus illuminat caecos. Illuminamur ergo modo, fratres, habentes collyrium fidei. Praecessit enim ejus saliva cum terra, unde inungeretur qui caecus est natus . Et nos de Adam caeci nati sumus, et illo illuminante opus habemus. Miscuit salivam cum terra: Verbum caro factum est, et habitavit in nobis . Miscuit salivam cum terra; ideo praedictum est, Veritas de terra orta est : ipse autem dixit, Ego sum via, veritas et vita . Veritate perfruemur, cum viderimus facie ad faciem; quia et hoc promittitur nobis. Nam quis auderet sperare quod Deus non dignatus esset vel polliceri vel dare? Videbimus facie ad faciem. Apostolus dicit: Nunc scio ex parte, nunc in aenigmate per speculum, tunc autem facie ad faciem . Et Joannes apostolus in Epistola sua: Dilectissimi, nunc filii Dei sumus, et nondum apparuit quid erimus: scimus quia cum apparuerit, similes ei erimus; quoniam videbimus eum sicuti est . Haec est magna promissio; si amas, sequere. Amo, inquis; sed qua sequor? Si dixisset tibi Dominus Deus tuus, Ego sum veritas et vita; desiderans veritatem, concupiscens vitam, viam qua ad haec pervenire posses profecto quaereres, et diceres tibi: Magna res veritas, magna res vita; si esset quomodo illuc perveniret anima mea! Quaeris qua? audi eum dicentem primo, Ego sum via. Antequam diceret tibi quo, praemisit qua: Ego sum, inquit, via. Quo via? Et veritas et vita. Primo dixit qua venias, postea dixit quo venias. Ego sum via, ego sum veritas, ego vita. Manens apud Patrem, veritas et vita: induens se carnem, factus est via. Non tibi dicitur, Labora quaerendo viam, ut pervenias ad veritatem et vitam; non hoc tibi dicitur. Piger, surge; via ipsa ad te venit, et te de somno dormientem excitavit, si tamen excitavit: surge, et ambula. Forte conaris ambulare, et non potes, quia dolent pedes. Unde dolent pedes? an jubente avaritia per aspera cucurrerunt? Sed Dei Verbum sanavit et claudos. Ecce, inquis, sanos habeo pedes, sed ipsam viam non video. Illuminavit et caecos.
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10. All this by faith, so long as we are absent from the Lord, dwelling in the body; but when we shall have traversed the way, and have reached the home itself, what shall be more joyful than we? What shall be more blessed than we? Because nothing more at peace than we; for there will be no rebelling against a man. But now, brethren, it is difficult for us to be without strife. We have indeed been called to concord, we are commanded to have peace among ourselves; to this we must give our endeavor, and strain with all our might, that we may come at last to the most perfect peace; but at present we are at strife, very often with those whose good we are seeking. There is one who goes astray, thou wishest to lead him to the way; he resists, thou strivest with him: the pagan resists thee, thou disputest against the errors of idols and devils; a heretic resists, thou disputest against other doctrines of devils; a bad catholic is not willing to live aright, thou rebukest even thy brother within; he dwells with thee in the house, and seeks the paths of ruin; thou art inflamed with eager passion to put him right, that thou mayest render to the Lord a good account of both concerning him. How many necessities of strife there are on every side! Very often one is overcome with weariness, and says to himself, “What have I to do with bearing with gainsayers, bearing with those who render evil for good? I wish to benefit them, they are willing to perish; I wear out my life in strife; I have no peace; besides, I make enemies of those whom I ought to have as friends, if they regarded the good will of him that seeks their good: what business is it of mine to endure this? Let me return to myself, I will be kept to myself, I will call upon my God. Do return to thyself, thou findest strife there. If thou hast begun to follow God, thou findest strife there. What strife, sayest thou, do I find? “The flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh.” Behold thou art thyself, thou art alone, thou art with thyself; behold, thou art bearing with no other person, but yet thou seest another law in thy members warring against the law of thy mind, and taking thee captive in the law of sin, which is in thy members. Cry aloud, then, and cry to God, that He may give thee peace from the inner strife: “O wretched man that I am, who shall deliver me from the body of this death? The grace of God through our Lord Jesus Christ.” Because, “He that followeth me,” saith He, “shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.” All strife ended, immortality shall follow; for “the last enemy, death, shall be destroyed.” And what peace will this be? “This corruptible must put on incorruption, and this mortal must put on immortality.” To which that we may come (for it will then be in reality), let us now follow in hope Him who said, “I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.”
Hoc totum per fidem, quamdiu peregrinamur a Domino, manentes in corpore: cum autem perambulaverimus viam, et ad ipsam patriam venerimus, quid erit nobis laetius? quid erit nobis beatius? Quia nihil pacatius: nihil enim adversus hominem rebellabit. Nunc vero, fratres, difficile sine rixa sumus. Ad concordiam quidem vocati sumus, jubemur pacem habere inter nos; ad hoc conandum est, omnibusque nitendum viribus, ut aliquando veniamus ad perfectissimam pacem: modo autem litigamus plerumque cum eis quibus consulere volumus. Ille errat, tu vis ducere ad viam; resistit tibi, litigas: resistit paganus, disputas contra errores idolorum et daemoniorum: resistit haereticus, disputas contra alias doctrinas daemoniorum: malus catholicus non vult bene vivere, corripis etiam interiorem fratrem tuum: tecum manet in domo, et perditas vias quaerit; aestuas quomodo corrigas, ut de illo bonam rationem Domino amborum reddas. Quantae undique rixarum necessitates? Plerumque homo taedio affectus, dicit apud semetipsum: Quid mihi est pati contradictores, pati eos qui reddunt mala pro bonis? Ego volo consulere, illi volunt perire: consumo vitam meam litigando; pacem non habeo: inimicos insuper facio, quos amicos habere deberem, si benevolentiam consulentis attenderent: quid mihi est ista perpeti? redeam ad me, mecum ero, Deum meum invocabo. Redi ad teipsum, ibi invenis rixam: si coepisti Deum sequi, ibi invenis rixam. Quam rixam, inquis, invenio? Caro concupiscit adversus spiritum, et spiritus adversus carnem . Ecce tu ipse es, ecce tu solus es, ecce tecum es, ecce alium nullum hominem pateris: sed vides aliam legem in membris tuis, repugnantem legi mentis tuae, et captivantem te in lege peccati, quae est in membris tuis. Exclama ergo, et a rixa interiore clama ad Deum, ut tibi pacificet te: Miser ego homo, quis me liberabit de corpore mortis hujus? Gratia Dei per Jesum Christum Dominum nostrum . Quia qui me, inquit, sequitur, non ambulabit in tenebris; sed habebit lumen vitae. Finita tota rixa, immortalitas consequetur, quia novissima inimica destruetur mors. Et qualis pax erit? Oportet corruptibile hoc induere incorruptionem, et mortale hoc induere immortalitatem . Quo ut veniamus, quia tunc erit in re, nunc sequamur in spe eum qui dixit, Ego sum lux mundi: qui me sequitur, non ambulabit in tenebris; sed habebit lumen vitae.